A year of sweetness and year of..

sun almost gone, "year" almost gone

the learning goes like this:
in this moment
i can do this
i can't do that

how can i learn
to know more
about what i "can" do

how can i learn ways
to sneak up
near
what i "can't" do

how can i learn
to be
fascinated
not frustrated
when the learning
doesn't come
"fast" enough

which means
i've forgotten learning
and fallen into the old habit
of wanting "things fixed,"
means me changed
like a broken car

instead of what i really am
a miracle of
brain
body
nerves
blood
bone
learning
and abilities
to learn
to be present
to explore
to discover
to expand
all that i ever
thought
was possible

yes