loving the down, loving the up

life
ah
 life can have moments of...
ugh

feeling like sh..
feeling
 bad, sad, mad
the usual suspects

and then the
fun
begins:

loving ourselves
which is not so fancy
it means
being present
to ourselves
and that's

feeling towards ourselves
and our "ugh"
one: that's good enough
two: that's pretty great
three: that's wonderful
four: I love you

five: (you go there)


and so it's a weird inner
spiral,
and i know,
i've been forgetting
and then remembering
and then forgetting
and then remembering
this a lot lately:

the spiral of
being happy to be alive
and loving
all of the now-ness of life,

...
including
the ugh

including the
feeling bad
being mad
glunked in sad


it's me
it's you
if it's now

wow:

a chance to love
"even that"

and "even that"
is total bullshit
which means we're still comparing
the now to some better imagined
future now

it's so sneaky
and wonderful
and forgiving
this now thing

it's always here
love is always here
happiness
"even" in our unhappiness
is always here



so we dive in
and stand at the edge
and complain

what a sweet choice
free will
gives us

the power of God:
to create love in
each
and every moment

good