the importance of fatigue

at times , the theory goes,
you build up muscles
by pushing to the point of fatigue

that this is done stupidly,
tightening neck and jaw and eyes
at the same time,
is another issue

now , today, here
this idea:

push "too far"
now and again
and build up....
something

last night
after a very full and "turned on"
turn on group,
where many of us
were much closer to our real and honest
selves

I went to the ten o'clock showing of
Lincoln,
the movie

it was amazing
and I got out at 12:30
and was reved
and got up at 6:15
and that left me exhausted

and
and
and

here's the deal:
the part of us that loves to be awake
doesn't give a fig
about feeling really really good tip top
rested

it can be aware of being
tired
and slow
and gorggy
and that's just fine


enuff said...
tiredness
is a good excuse for
both types of laziness:

the fear of doing beyond the comfortable laziness
and
the sinking back into the indolent bliss
of
JUST
BEING

not totally,
but somewhat
we can dial which percentage of the laziness game
we
want to play which way


at any time

and now is the time
to wish you a fatgued
or energized
or even happy/ unhappy day

just be there with it

experience your experience

that is the source of
all
miracles


love Chris