the importance of death

Freud, if I remember, talks of orgasm
as a little death

and yeah, the climax kind
is like a blasting away of
everythng
into the emptiness

a moment or two or ten
of blessed relief

and death has got
to be like that:
no problem, say the jerky jerks
and when you die:

no
problem

and what about the better version?
you're welcome?

you've come to wellness
or come home

and here we get where we always need to
be
NOW

the present
is as empty as death,

unless you are telling a story about it
and that story is words and references
always from outside the
EXPERIENCE
of now

and so what?

and so,
all relationships
die

the other person conks
or we conk
which means die,
not fucking "pass away"

or they leave
or we
leave

and what if there was a commitment
to stick in out?

ah, most people don't want deep
they want a dream
and then when the dream was a lie
they blame the other and leave

and that's death

but the death of
truth

and that kind of death isn't important

the kind that is:

the
IS IT TRUE?
question
to any thought. story. belief we are using to hold
ourselves
back
from a turned on
awakened life

that's all
that needs to die

that's all




good

today is the last day of the end of your life

live it well

today is the last day of everything that has gone
before

love it
it's what you were and did and felt and experienced

and let it go

it's gone
gone
gone

and now
what with all that gone
what's left?

now.
your life.

now.
your life

now
your life

live it as if you were going to live forever
or
as if this was the last day
or
both

since both might be
true
who knows

we don't and
all that leaves
is

of course

now

good

Love and Fear

Love is fearless
but the ego is not

and so the ego
is afraid of
love

sometimes

of course,
love can "look good"
to the ego,
and not just trophy lovers,
but the real actual juicy delight
of sex

is good for
the body
and good
for
the soul
and good
for the ego
too,

because the poor ego,
which doesn't exist,
has this idea
that there is something basically lacking

and good sex
at least temporarily
makes the ego,
which doesn't exist
feel as if it did

and the body exists

the we
the us
the real me
right not BE the body
but it
me
you
I
are in these sweet bodies

and what about love
and fear:

good love
scares the ego
because in good love
the ego dissolves
and all that is left is adoration
of life
really

though it can appear to be of the
other

and the ego
wants to cling to time
and wants "this love right now
so hot so fine"
to last forever
which it might
but we'll never know
except one now at a time

is this making any sense?

sense to the part of you
that doesn't have to fit all
the words
together
but knows

you've been scared sometimes
when love seems
too good

as if you don't deserve it

or as
if,
without guarantees
of ever and ever
it's too much a risk to
love so much

or
as if,
the world
so deliciously out of control
will dissolve

and it
will

it will

read Rumi
read Hafiz

fall into the empty drop
delightful magic carpet of now:

it's all gone
this moment and the last ten million
and all that's left

is.....

love

Loving What Is

here's a short cut
for thanks
giving

love what's in front of you

love what's behind you

look forward to loving what
tom
mor
row
may bring

and then
what's wrong with loving
this computer screen
telling you this suave advise

and if it annoys
you
love and be thanks ful
for that

easy
eh
almost cheating this
weird wonderful aspect of God

all is good
you are good
loving everything is God's game

yours too
when you
i
we all
do it

ciao
for NOW
chris

Love poems to and from God

if we forgot what we were
doing
and just
"just"
remembered the glory
of
I AM

would that be enough?

I don't know.

But I suspect that it
Would

Let's try for a while
and see what
happens....
shhhh
no words in the head

ah, peace, empty
can't even say it
can we

and...

pretty nice


Chris

And from Kabir:

I sat one day with a priest who expounded
on the doctrine of hell

I listened to him
for hours
and then he asked me,
what I thought of what he'd said.

I replied:

"This doctrine seems an inhuman cage.
No wonder all the
smart dogs
Run Away."


And from Mira:

I tried controlling myself
but it did
no good.
My senses are aflame.

I heard You singing.
that started all this blessed madness.

I openly made love with everything in sight
last night
and this morning.

The constable showed up and wrote over twenty citations.

I guess I shouldn't have jumped
naked
on him
in front of his wife.

the hypocrite,
he wouldn't have complained at all

if we were
alone.

St Catherine of Siena:

If you cried in Heaven,
everyone would laugh

for they would know,
you were just kidding.




Poems are pointers
where do they point
for
you
today

and what if you read
them again
tomorrow

would the arrows
have sprouted branches
and the branches
leaves

and the leaves
shimmer
light every which way?

Who knows
but you
and your experience
of this
existence

just
now

Chris

the non me ones,
slightly shifted around,
from
Love Poems from God

What would Wake Up Yoga be Like?

Ah, la, life is so good.

Wake up Yoga would be about using the
silly/ wonderful/ interesting/ curious/ artificial/ brilliant/ idiotic
poses
postures
shapes

of yoga,

to wake up to:

1. Now

2. The miracle of being in a human body

3. The constancies of life on Earth:

Breathing

Gravity

4. The constancies and challenges of the Human Form:

Two legs

High center of gravity

Designed as a column with rotation the simplest action

Place of seeing/ hearing/ smelling high up

Place of balance and strength far down from this place

Power in the middle, small delicate muscles at the edges

5. The miracle of the Human Possibility:

Awareness ( the now again, and more: awareness of our habit, and
awareness of other variations)

Slowing Down to Learn

Learning as its own joy

Joy when we quiet the rest of the nonsense down

Learning quicker and more pleasant when we don't "try hard"

6. Making the impossible possible
The possible easy
The easy elegant


Something like that:

And more about going inside and finding who and how
you are
and
DISCOVERING POSSIBILITIES

rather than the tired old monkey see
highly skilled monkey do
and monkey try to imitate highly skilled monkey

Like this:

Lie on your back.
Feel the sweetness of the floor.
Raise one leg to standing, i.e. foot flat on floor, knee toward sky.
Press into the foot standing and rotate that hip
Keep the other hip on the floor
Push out your belly.
Come back to flat.
Go back and forth, and LEARN

Try breathing in on the hip rotation/ belly out
Try breathing out on the hip rotation/ belly out
Notice the two changes in your spine:rotation and arching
Notice even more: which vertebrae are doing what
Notice: is your neck free
Notice : is your jaw and breathing free
Notice: are your finger soft and free
Notice: which way would your spine like to side bend along the floor
Notice: the way your foot presses into the floor
Notice: the force of your foot against gravity and that moving through your whole spine
Notice: how much fun, delight and learning it is, to Notice