when waiting for an "i love you"

sometimes we are silly
or
maybe we should call it confused
or
even insane
but we can say that insane in the nicest possible way

and that silliness/ confusion/ insanity
goes like this:
"You should send an
'I love you'
my way."

This can be of someone we are "with"
or
someone we haven't met
but we are feeling deprived

can be a wife a husband boy/girlfriend
business chum
high school buddy
all that

we have that
naked and empty feeling
and they
whatever
they

(you know we are single
and waiting for sex to prove we
are okay,
or the smile of liking us,
or anything, anything wanting that
"I love you"
that coming from the best of all real Mom's
would just mean:

it's okay
you're okay

you're more than okay:
you're perfect)

and as we wait,
if we come to the present
and go the the quiet underneath
words
and concepts
and even (in a different way)
underneath "feelings"

if we go quiet
and listen:

the whole universe is
whispering:

I love you

and that whisper is
coming from deepest us
to the rest of us

from deepest us to everyone in the world
plus trees
roses
rocks
cars
gutters
spit slime and gore

the i love you
can't stop
everything is so fine
because we
are the everything
we see hear taste touch know
about
don't know about

it gets kind of blury
in the mystical mess bliss
and
so
f...ing what

life is whole
and the i love you is life whisper shout murmer sing
dancing to us:

I love you

it's everywhere

and if you've read this far,
here's your reward:

anything we are looking for
"out there"
is already "in here"
in the God
that is our heart
when it is a real
heart,
a receiving and transmitting
miracle maker
of
love happiness peace joy abundance bliss creativity

you want it
and
zap
it is you
it is the universe

you are the unirverse is you reverse direction
so many times you don't know
where you are going

and it
doesn't matter
 d
die before you die
you are already home
dead
and gone
to heaven

the kingdom of heaven
is
now
is
in your heart my heart the tree's heart the rock's heart the busy city street's heart
the baby smiling
saying
really
all the people are saying
in the wonderful world song:
they're really saying:
I love you

just soften
slow
listen to the whisper inside the silence

is that
"I love you?" gurgling into
your heart
or
out of it

or into every cell of your body
or out through them

keep turning
keep returning

the dance is sweet
the whirl is complete

and is so fine
to keep turning returning praise laughing loving tears


love is an inside joy
love is an inside job
live is love is like is life is...
words fall
the heart soars

life
lives and loves
itself

and we are just along
for the ride/ dance/ lovemaking love making
song symphony garden forest meadow
ocean
of
it all

of thanks
thanks
thanks

good

Movement and Love, Feldenkrais and Love, the whole shebang

I used to post on Wednesdays some thoughts
of a Feldenkrais nature.

I have strayed, it appears in these various Poems from Now,
and love thoughts,
and relationship enlightenment rambles,
and perhaps the straying has not been so far.

AND
I want to stray back to a once a week essay,
in this weird poems style, which I like as more readable,
and more easy to let the thoughts,
creep out
one
at
a time.

To say nothing of our great Feldie friend:
variation.

One word lines
like
yes
and then letting the words jumble rumble along and go all the way to the end of the page and then wrap around and keep going in word processor style

And
today's topic:
Feldenkrais and love, which I've explored several times before. (next week I'll write about "anti-aging" as the "main topic," but watch and see:
Feldy
and love
and anti-aging all meet at a sweet point.)

And what is the sweet point:
The Kingdom of Heaven is within.
And the Kingdom of Heaven is now.

Life without love is, in a certain way, not really worth living,
and it's about knowing the kingdom of heaven
within oneself
and seeing feeling and encouraging that in your partner,
and in everyone you love.

And in Feldenkrais, we
appear to be moving bodies
in space
on tables
or chairs or the floor,
with an occasional brave "standing lesson."

Are we looking for the "Kingdom of Heaven,"
(which I'm conveniently, and on purpose leaving
vague and open ended)
in these bodies?

Yes.

We are loving these bodies in the usual way
of real lovers who:
1. listen
2. like what they hear
3. are willing to go very slowly with any shifting
4. aren't afraid to suggest alternatives
5. listen to the results of those alternatives
6, are deeply concentrated on things being perfect and getting even
better for the other

All this could be elaborated,
and won't be.

You fill in the extras, if you are a Feldie.

You fill in the examples if you are in love.

You look for where you are missing the mark if you are not in
love right now.

.........
Tidbit:
I've taken this website name:
Mindful-Dating.com
to help and encourage those who might wish for
relationship based on awakened and present existence.

And have an ongoing blog:
RelationshipEnlightenment.blogspot.com/
for those in our out of relationship,
again, wanting, wishing, even demanding
awareness as core
to their love

....


And here we are back to the theme of the day:

Feldenkrais: where Awareness is crowned as life's chance for freedom
(See Moshe's Awareness Through Movement, the first section)
and Movement is the way to most easily get there

Love; where awareness of ourselves in the present,
and in our bodies
allows our minds and our inner chatter to
shut up enough
so we can actually indulge in the great gift
and glory of another person
in all their rags and riches, beauty and warts,
in our presence
and beyond this indulgence and our own joy,
shower them with this greatest of all gifts:

our awareness of them,
in the present.

Okay, that's enough.

Plenty of blanks to fill in, meadows to plant with wild flowers,
poems to write for yourself.

Go out.
Love the world.
Give great lessons.

Feed awareness with awareness.

Core to the Koran,
the light Verse,

core to that Verse:

Light upon Light

Good.