true story and what is true? talking while awake... not so easy

In my Sonoma days,

a nun came to town.

Not the Catholic kind, but Tibetan,
some fearless gal from Canada or Ohio
or something who
had
gone to
Nepal and sat in a cave for
????? a long time
under supervision of the Tibetan Buddhist
path

she'd gotten a lot of
strength wisdom freedom
from
this experience
and her talk was inspiring

after
wards
I joined the line of those
saying, Oh wow, thanks for your
talk, blah blah

And then,
going out to my bike
realized
that the blah balh
blah
had all been said in a state
of
sleep

eggads!
again!

oh, well.

sensing feet and arms and aware of light
and sound
i walked the now not asleep Chris
back into the building
and found the nun
and said,
you know last time I talked
to you about how great your
talk was
I wasn't conscious
now I am
and thanks

She woke up to match me
out of the shaking hands
daze
and we glowed
at each other for a brief
eternal now
moment
and
then I went back out
to my bike

it would be nice to say
i've been awake since
that moment,

but alas,
the learning
and slipping
and re re remembering
(which members?)
happens
over and over

luckily
it's a delight
to come home
each and
ever
y
time


ciao
for
NOW

Chris

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The Elusive Obvious

In his grand and glorious
book
The Elusive Obvious
our man Moshe
is prattling on about babies,
and he finds
himself
saying something he has said
over and over and over



and he is disgusted to catch
himself repeating one of
his favs
like a robot

" Every time I hear myself say

something by habit as the previous phrase.

I catch myself thinking like a machine,'
albeit maybe a clever one." p. 81

and i can write this
like a robot
too

how to
be in the world of
words
and be
awake

tricky
tricky
tricky

and worth a try
without out it
life is
......
fill in the blank
with some of your old phrases
or let's empty our minds
and see
if anything new
comes
from:

without the awakeness
life
is
........