Love is, Love Ain't 9

You can try and control reality
and
you'll fail

You can ask for what you want
and in
the mean time
what you've got is best treated this way:

love it


I've practiced this awhile, and have had the great
gift and good fortune to be reunited ( see the blog,
Love is Love Ain't 8: The Heart Knows What the Head has Forgotten)
with a love
who was deep
and it was a mess

and it stopped

and various of us thought the other was wrong
and then we got in the same room
after enough time
and no one was
wrong

it was just love


and tonight she's with an old lover
so be it

loving her
means loving her having what she wants

tonight she wants him
( this morning she came to me,
she's a woman full of love)

this makes me happy

call me crazy

or call me out of control

or call me wanting this women to be who
she is
and discover her true path

whatever is up

I love her
and wish them a wonderful night.

Yewo.

love

love is a big world...
a small word...

a magic land of confusion...
and
possibilitiy

what does love mean?

it means that you want the best for another
it means you want to be with the other
it means you can tell the person you love that you hate them
it means you don't know what you are doing
sometimes
they just drive you so fucking crazy
and
that's okay

it's just love

love is
letting the other person be right
love is
nailing the other person for their bullshit
love is
seeing how that is often, let's say, ninety four percent
of the time
your bullshit, too

love is laughing at
your small petty demands for their love

love is letting
go
of fear

yeah, yeah, a book title

and fear is a world
and a small word

and a cage
a good cage,
because we came from jungles and ice ages
and such
but fear has gotten
snarly in civilization
and often gets immeshed in this petty prison:
do others approve of me
will this meet disapproval

and what's the power, the powder, the dynamite
to blast
out
of living a living prisoned by others opinions
desire


desire
and love

and how are they the same
and how are they different?

these two:
desire
and love?

ah, that's mainly for another day,
but let's start by saying:
desire sets you toward another,
toward connection and pleasure

and love lets you let them breathe
so you don't sufrocate them
which is spelled suffocate
I'll be damned

don't you just love
that?

the not knowing
that
also is another day
how
"I don't know"
can often be the fuel
for
real
love

ha

ha


ha


good